tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-80353632463101014902024-03-13T08:54:33.193+00:00Domestic chaosMy life in a nut shellZoehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08810689138581133111noreply@blogger.comBlogger115125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8035363246310101490.post-90059753053715021722015-06-15T08:08:00.001+01:002015-06-15T08:08:57.256+01:00I need a crash helmet...<span style="color: #741b47;"><b>Well folks,2 years after my last post,(or thereabouts),I'm posting again. It is actually down to Mort,I saw that he is writing a new blog,went over to his on link and realised I still had mine. It's been a long time,so much has happened....</b></span><br />
<span style="color: #741b47;"><b>Mum passed away not long after my last post,in August 2013,that year was manic and full of pain for one reason or another,mostly because my brothers felt attacking me was necessary.Anyway,Mum passed from a brain tumour,we picked ourselves up and tried to have a good Christmas,however shortly into the new year,we discovered my partner,Peter, has pancreatic cancer with secondary liver tumours. Of course its in-operable and of course its terminal. So today I am preparing for the worst,hes had all of the chemotherapy,he cant have anymore,and his health is in decline.</b></span><br />
<span style="color: #741b47;"><b>Hence the title...I need a crash helmet.</b></span><br />
<span style="color: #741b47;"><b>I dont know how often I can post whilst this is on-going,but I think I will need to when the dust settles,it helps me in bad times to vent out,write down feelings and leave them on the page,so I may do that. Thank you to anyone who may read this,it is helpful.All the best xxx</b></span>Zoehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08810689138581133111noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8035363246310101490.post-75542610374467601802013-03-20T09:28:00.001+00:002013-03-20T09:28:45.807+00:00<span style="color: purple;"><b><span style="font-size: small;">Well, its been a long time since I wrote here,the dogs were puppies, my house needed decorating and I was a bit younger. Only a bit...</span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: purple;"><b><span style="font-size: small;">Anyway,this has all been due to several things but one mostly, my depression.Firstly I don't feel the ne<span style="font-size: small;">ed to pass this onto my readers but also because its hard to talk about anything else when your mind is so full up.</span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: purple;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"> It's like a big wad of cotton wool inside your head,it's soaked up all of the important day to day things you need to remember,that the rest of the rubbish is seeping out of the edges,things like how you feel about yourself,money worries etc,the cotton wool also blocks the part of the brain that deals with rational reason,therefore something bad happens,you think it's your fault,at this point the rational reasoning part woul<span style="font-size: small;">d explain how it couldn'<span style="font-size: small;">t</span> be your fault as you don't control everything and you're not responsible for everything. However being muffled or blocked,a very odd thing happens,your cotton wool absorbs the blame,muffles the voice of reason and leaves you therefore to your own devices to randomly attack yourself at will.</span></span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: purple;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">It's a bit like being at a 70's d<span style="font-size: small;">isco,<span style="font-size: small;">S</span>aturday night fever playing over and over at full volume and your friend says something really important a<span style="font-size: small;">bout the best looking person in the room fancying you,however all you hear is muffled garbage and say...'' a week last <span style="font-size: small;">T</span>uesday I think''...and nobody bothers speaking to you anymore because they think your'e mad.</span></span></span></span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: purple;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">So I've been self-absorbed,plunging myself into decorating,home educating,( yes I still do that), and spring cleaning <span style="font-size: small;">to the point that I have very little in the way of possessions left. It helps to focus on doing things,keeping busy but having O.C.D means I go a bit stringent with it all to say the least. That reminds me,I must polish the hamster...</span></span></span></span></span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: purple;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">Walking briskly is supposed to help,I think thats meant to apply to going out and walking briskly,in the slightly fresh air of Blackpool town centre,but I have no real urgent wish to encounter alcoholic,sweaty,toothless men every ten seconds,otherwise I'd shop at farmfoods. I don't thin<span style="font-size: small;">k walking briskly up and down the stairs to re-clean the toilet as I only did it t<span style="font-size: small;">en minutes ago counts.</span></span> </span></span></span></span></span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: purple;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">I do take anti-depressants,however in my little world I thought <span style="font-size: small;">that if I only take them when I need th<span style="font-size: small;">em I would'nt become addicted. That sounds quite rational even for me,however,all w<span style="font-size: small;">as going well until the dredded 'bad' week occured. there was nothing in particular that made that week stand out as monumental,it was more my ability to keep all balls in the air whilst fitting a new doorstop for half an hour,only to discover it doesn't stop the door from opening too far as the door passes over it. Then I took my eye off of the afore-menti<span style="font-size: small;">oned balls for one second and W<span style="font-size: small;">H<span style="font-size: small;">AM,( no not a mildly ok 80's gay icon duo), <span style="font-size: small;">my life caught up with me,Dad dying,Mum ill,kids almost grown up,my aches and bloody intense pains and my inability to remember ANYTHING,and I fell,I took the damn anti-depressants all week to combat it all. Oh yes,now I was in trouble,because you can't just go back to the odd one or two,as I discovered,now that you feel a bit better,Oh no,now I have to take them all of the time. </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: purple;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">Well,I don't</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></b></span><b>,and consequently an interesting set of events occured. Firstly I was tearful,then angry at everything,including bloody 'men at work' signs in the middle of the pathway,I mean in the middle,dog mess either side too,I mean how the hell are <span style="font-size: small;">you meant to get past for God's sake?.. Ahem anyway, then the worst thing,this was last week,suicidal thoughts. Now most of the time thoughts don't tend to occur often to me and if they do,they remain so briefly in my mind they don't cause much disruption,except when its thoughts of someone's birthday or a bill that needs paying,then its just annoying. But these thoughts would'nt go away,they just grew,with the tearfulness,anger and nail-biting habit I seem to have aquired. So I have had to work hard,as this is because I am coming down off of the tablet dependancy,cold turkey if you like,although I'm not a fan,it doesnt matter how much mayonnaise you slap on it,cold turkey is rank.</span></b><br />
<span style="color: purple;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">So,a million cups of coffee,more cigarettes than I can afford,( that's one whole packet then as my credit rating for a mortgage was piss poor), and alot of swearing later,I seem to be entering a clearing....in my mind,not in Blackpool,there's no such thing.</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: purple;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">So today I thought I would inflict myself upon you all again,Im sure no-one will really read this anyway,your'e not expecting me after all and besides,no-one picks up bad pennies,mainly because they're usually stuck to a piece of chewing gum on the pavement. I would say I'<span style="font-size: small;">ll probably be here quite often now,but making such wild claims when I have short term memory loss is futile. Another thing <span style="font-size: small;">that<span style="font-size: small;">'s futile is making wild claims that I'<span style="font-size: small;">ll be here quite often. That's just bonkers.</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: purple;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">Anyway I hope you are all well,Ive been reading up on as much as I could of everybody's blogs, I see Mort is back,he dusted his caps lock and went for procrastination,whatever the hell that means,it sounded good though,nice to see you Mort,...oh what the hell...to see you nice, I had to say it,just had to.</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: purple;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">Ok Im off to go lift the lino and scrub my boards,make of that what you will,toodle pip and watch out for men with moth<span style="font-size: small;">-</span>eaten brown cases,apparently they think they work in government and can take money from the poor and give it to the rich...bloody looney.</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></b></span><br />
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<span style="color: #351c75;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">Whether you understood my previous posts about a puppy or not,you will probably gather that on 8th July I am to welcome our new arrival,Oscar,the minature Dacshund....WRONG !!</span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #351c75;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">We had some bad news two weeks ago now,at the time we thought things were going to be so upsetting,and dont get me wrong,we have been so very upset,but I will digress and see what you think.</span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #351c75;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">Little Oscar has a cleft pallette,for those not in the know,in his case anyway,this means he has a slit or opening in the roof of his mouth from the area of the front teeth to near the middle of there.It is serious and was especially so when he was trying to suckle.Milk was going straight up his nose,and any first solids too,yes it is uncomfortable for him but it is dangerous too.Firstly and most obvious was that he wasnt getting the nutrients to his stomach and thus was small and underweight.However,also when eating solids,should they collect in the hole and cause an infection,he could develop pnumonia and may have to be put to sleep.</span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #351c75;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">Alot of breeders dont report cleft pallettes because the puppy usually passes away from starvation in the first few days,without them being aware alot of the time.( I dont want to be controversial here so I am being careful with my words),however it is also the case that people dont want a puppy that has this problem as it means problem eating,supervision and a possible operation.</span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #351c75;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">Oscar is now nearly 8 weeks old,I am happy to say he is gaining weight through the hard work of the lady breeder who has him now.She has offered us Oscar for free as we felt we would have him anyway.However I have another bit of news,we are buying his sister Molly,there were only two pups in the litter,Molly was due to go to another buyer but he backed out,and we felt Oscar stood a better chance with his sister beside him.</span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #351c75;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">He is thus far almost the same size as Molly now,he has battled hard and we are hopeful that he continues to do so.I dont want to jinx anything here so I cant be too optimistic.</span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #351c75;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">So we will have double trouble but double the love in the house soon.Oscar will probably need an operation to close the cleft at about 6-8 months old,if it doesnt close on its own,but thats rare.He has to thrive and continue to grow until then,the later it is left the better the prognosis of the cleft not re-opening.I have no idea on the cost but as things go,a specialist vet will probably be needed,as alot of puppies do not survive this or are put to sleep,so theres not alot of vets who can do this operation,Im sure we will be looking at around £600.00.I think he is worth it.</span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #351c75;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">Around the same time we will have Molly Spayed,thats not cheap either but can I just say that sometimes in life you have to have faith.Whether you have religion in your life or not,I believe that all things happen for a reason and that without the effort made to help Oscar survive he would have perished,if he makes it and has the operation,if it is successful,it was meant to be,hes a fighter and a little darling.Molly is a blessing,we hadnt paid any attention to her when we visited Oscar,as we thought she was going to someone else,so we have made a massive fuss of her recently,what an absolute angel she is,so loving and funny,a little pudding tummy and she snuggles so sweetly to you if you cuddle her.Our house needs this love in it,to ease alot of pain.</span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #351c75;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">I cant wait until next friday,wish us luck and prayers for Oscar please,we need them.</span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #351c75;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">xxxxxxxx</span></span></b></span><br />
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<span style="color: #351c75;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">Anyway,those who have found me via Facebooks' call for help,Welcome and my deepest sympathies.</span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #351c75;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">Im afraid I dont really deal with deep and meaningful topics here,just moaning and toilets really,occaisionally I drop in the odd word from the wise but I wouldnt get your hopes up.</span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #351c75;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">I have ceased the decorating at the moment,mainly due to lack of funds.I am currently getting ESA benefit and Im in the support group as I have P.T.S.D.( Lucky old me),I say currently because under this government nothing is certain,you cannot get used to anything at all.</span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #351c75;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">Something I thought was worth sharing,if you didnt already know,those of us who have or do play the lottery,may still be under the assumption that you can tick a box to remain anonymous.Not true as I discovered tuesday.</span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #351c75;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">I was about to check my ticket online,I looked on the back and read the rules,now generally,if you won,say,£20,000,you can get the first £500.00 in cash from a lottery nominated post office,you have to take photo I.D.,proof of address and your youngest child as a live sacrifice,( scrub that last,that was sarcasm),the remaining monies are given to you in a cheque.Now as soon as that hits your bank,not only does Mr.Inland revenue know about it,but so does the benefit agency.</span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #351c75;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">Im sure everyone agrees that benefit fraud is wrong,however you might want your £19,500 to go to your children/grandchildren.Well I m afraid you will have to live on it,if you have means tested benefits,such as housing benefit,council tax benefit,ESA,JSA,etc etc,you will stop getting them and have to pay your rent,council tax,and everything else,ask yourself how long that will last,thats without providing bank statements to show you didnt buy a telly or a new settee or bed.</span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #351c75;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">It is widely thought that you are allowed up to £16,000 in savings,but the small print says different,you can be made to use this to live on in some circumstances,so leaving some to pay for your funeral in an account,and to settle any debts you may leave wont happen either.</span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #351c75;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">Want to play the lottery now?</span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #351c75;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">Well lets hope you win big time,otherwise it could be 7 years in prison if you try to hide it.For heavens sake dont buy that plasma 50" makes the coffee in the morning telly !!</span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #351c75;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">OOh thats a bugger.No Jeremy Kyle in singing and dancing HD quality with knobs on.</span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #351c75;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">I was due to win soon,the same numbers every week,twice a week,grrr.</span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #351c75;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">I think I shall spend the money on some cake...mmm carrot cake with icing,or coffee and walnut cake,now that cant be a crime...can it?</span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #351c75;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">Tc all xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx </span></span></b></span>Zoehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08810689138581133111noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8035363246310101490.post-17695715033845572011-05-25T10:17:00.000+01:002011-05-25T10:17:40.808+01:00Hi all<span style="color: #351c75;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">I have only just realised that I haven't written here since January,where has the time gone? We are fast approaching June and it just seems like everyone else is running whilst I stand still.Its either the onset of old age or my menopause is catching up on me....or both,help !!</span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #351c75;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">I have done all the decorating that I can for now,every room is looking pretty good,Im hoping to sand floorboards and stain them later in the year...I know I know,I need a hobby.</span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #351c75;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">No the bathroom is not done,thats a sore point!! ( Said the actress to the bishop),nothing wants to work in my bathroom and I dont have the money to fix it,Ive talked to the landlord.....still no result,so I have to complain,ARRGGHH,why cant things go right for once?</span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #351c75;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">Thats all I need an angry landlord,still if Im good for anything,its complaining.</span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #351c75;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">Anyway,on the bright side,we are expecting a new little bundle of joy,( yes I have been busy),it wont be long now the due date is 8th July but you know nothing ever goes to plan here so I will try to keep you posted,if Im not asleep in the chair from exhaustion.</span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #351c75;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">So without further ado,for those who insist on a photo/picture.....drum roll please....</span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #351c75;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">Tissues at the ready,please give a big 'aww' for baby Oscar...</span></span></b></span><br />
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<span style="color: #351c75;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">Anyway,the decorating in a large 100 year old house with subsidence,is proving...tricky but challenging.Holes,gaps,chasms and the odd large spider,all sent to try me.I wont mention the toilet...actually it deserves a brief mention,its rocking off of the wall now,actually its quite a ride when you reach for the toilet paper,it could rival 'the big one' rollercoaster ride here in Blackpool,I should sell tickets.However,a new bathroom suite is needed,once I can get the archaic shower removed,its difficult not just because of its location,(close to the wall),not just because its hooked up to a tank in the bathroom itself,but for the landlord to pay to remove it,it has to be non-functional.We cant use the bath often because it leaks so we need a working shower.Perplexing eh?</span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #351c75;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">My eldest son and his girlfriend moved out just before Christmas,so they are settled in their new home,so a good time for a clean sweep me thinks.</span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #351c75;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">Well I hope you are all well,I hope I can blog here a bit more than I have been lately,its not easy but I will see you all soon,stay happy xxxxxxxxxxx </span></span></b></span>Zoehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08810689138581133111noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8035363246310101490.post-80564490053818272662010-12-16T23:01:00.000+00:002010-12-16T23:01:52.893+00:00Merry Christmas<span style="color: #351c75;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">Ive noticed alot of you dont seem to come here so often now,its not AO Hell now is it? However I wanted to wish you all a very merry Christmas and a peaceful new year.I hope you all make it through this cold snap safely and with good health,</span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #351c75;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">Lots of love xxxxx </span></span></b></span>Zoehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08810689138581133111noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8035363246310101490.post-9652203681316608682010-12-16T22:59:00.002+00:002010-12-16T22:59:32.665+00:00<div align="center"><a href="http://www.wilsoninfo.com/" target="_blank"><br />
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<span style="color: #351c75;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">For my fella and anyone who loves the series life on mars..class lol xx</span></span></b></span><br />
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<span style="color: #351c75;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">Last but not least,a bit of Bill bailey copying U2 see you later xxx</span></span></b></span><br />
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<span style="color: #351c75;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;"> </span></span></b></span>Zoehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08810689138581133111noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8035363246310101490.post-91104104271028105982010-11-02T22:18:00.000+00:002010-11-02T22:18:06.456+00:00Fun for all xxx<span style="color: #351c75;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">I have had a really crappy day peeps,too sad and depressing to mention now,so I shall share it later lol,however I wanted to cheer myself up with some funny vids,I hope you enjoy xxx</span></span></b></span><br />
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<object height="300" width="380"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/LquiCxnI4TA?fs=1&hl=en_US"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/LquiCxnI4TA?fs=1&hl=en_US" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="380" height="300"></embed></object>Zoehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08810689138581133111noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8035363246310101490.post-10771551352135766472010-10-22T01:18:00.000+01:002010-10-22T01:18:38.421+01:00Mort<span style="color: #351c75;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">It was with great sadness that I read on Morts blog that he is leaving here,I hope nothing has happened,I havent been here much so Im not up to date as it goes,aww what a shame.He will be missed.</span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #351c75;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">I just popped on to see how everyone is,as some of you who have emailed me have gathered it is my birthday next saturday 30th,thank you everyone who has wished me well,I am going out with my lovely fella,come hell,high water or price rises on beer,sod em' eh?</span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #351c75;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">And in answer to Trish,Im going to be 41 not 45 lol,cheeky!</span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #351c75;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">I hope everyone is well,Im off to finish tumble drying my bed clothes,dont ask,bye all,see you soon tc.xxxxxxxxxxxxxx </span></span></b></span>Zoehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08810689138581133111noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8035363246310101490.post-15420450455255512932010-09-22T21:58:00.000+01:002010-09-22T21:58:18.559+01:00Hey all xxxxxxxxxx<span style="color: #351c75;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">Hi everyone,Im glad we are all well,sorry I missed the celebration of the old aol community thingy,lol,but I was busy with my head under a wall unit.I would love to pop a few pics on here but at this time I dont have anything to take a pic with,however I shall improvise so imagine a kitchen...ok old seventies,dark brown and bits missing,woodworm etc,then imagine a light bright kitchen with no woodworm,same old cupboards but now fixed and clean and a sink that doesnt bow in the middle,and there you have it..... ok ok so you want pictures...hang on ...Ok Before....</span></span></b></span><br />
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiqLli-e0x7-spQ_crfS9YohJWj9B222BrUj2wKjt-AorIIsqvo42xuVEl8OfozevxU1DXBLb9t6jfvsRnyYqGUMuZk03MbsaxGzxzRPwVvWZNB6uvg7Iq5yddFR8annGqvzj9UHyZVY_M/s1600/Rusty-Old-Car_web-1.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiqLli-e0x7-spQ_crfS9YohJWj9B222BrUj2wKjt-AorIIsqvo42xuVEl8OfozevxU1DXBLb9t6jfvsRnyYqGUMuZk03MbsaxGzxzRPwVvWZNB6uvg7Iq5yddFR8annGqvzj9UHyZVY_M/s320/Rusty-Old-Car_web-1.jpg" /></a></div><span style="color: #351c75;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">And now..( drum roll please).... After...</span></span></b></span><br />
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEja494kAuaVyEALpYN4cMV8mbEvTebW5LIOGgm9RITKkxUR-g59hd0_Vv2IzvICEUg2SZ6wTGhP5FngKzOGx-0RMlYhR37iQVh76spiUr7BJW4pdGADrSNUoqkuFSSIZtKZBWO4qAUXiZM/s1600/rr_phantom01.gif" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEja494kAuaVyEALpYN4cMV8mbEvTebW5LIOGgm9RITKkxUR-g59hd0_Vv2IzvICEUg2SZ6wTGhP5FngKzOGx-0RMlYhR37iQVh76spiUr7BJW4pdGADrSNUoqkuFSSIZtKZBWO4qAUXiZM/s320/rr_phantom01.gif" /></a></div><span style="color: #351c75;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;"> Look I dont have a camera at the moment,its metaphorical mental imagery depicting the old becoming the new using subliminal suggestion but not insinuating literal connection.Its quite simple.</span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #351c75;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">Anyhoo,just as an update,if youre interested.Maybe not,but I shall anyway,seeing as youre here now n' all.I am officially mad,yes folks I know its hard to believe,but I am.I saw something quite disturbing today,now if youre not sitting down you may want to at this juncture.</span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #351c75;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">I was out doing my daily,'Mum weve run out of bread' run,when I saw something I hadnt seen in years...</span></span></b></span><br />
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjOUKvYW5M5e3JN0HhXxCJc0ypQGkRnBb9dRd-C21JC2Mg6uMY0wm-PAhrZYhPdXwBMUFYX7mLCXy6y0RLSrDcKXVkotwUIZZT38dmRuP0RRKcmr7g2rZmeS09tWD3wbPWJkCJkSSYQiVc/s1600/_39835295_workmen203.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjOUKvYW5M5e3JN0HhXxCJc0ypQGkRnBb9dRd-C21JC2Mg6uMY0wm-PAhrZYhPdXwBMUFYX7mLCXy6y0RLSrDcKXVkotwUIZZT38dmRuP0RRKcmr7g2rZmeS09tWD3wbPWJkCJkSSYQiVc/s320/_39835295_workmen203.jpg" /></a></div><span style="color: #351c75;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;"> Yes yes I know,workmen actually working !! I thought I was dreaming,you know one day you wake up and find cones outside your house,theres a strange noise but when you go out no-one is there,however the crossing outside has been replaced by a rather lovely tribute to mount Everest and strips of red plastic round your feet whilst carrying two heavy bags of special offers,( bugger I forgot the bread).I think,but Im not 100% sure,that someone is improving the main road outside,but shhh dont tell anyone I know or Ill be carted off to the funny farm.Its our secret ok?</span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #351c75;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">Im off now to go polish my kitchen rolls and water the dining room,toodle pip xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx </span></span></b></span>Zoehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08810689138581133111noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8035363246310101490.post-49199483302140784582010-09-13T23:11:00.000+01:002010-09-13T23:11:57.573+01:00Its been agesssssssssss<span style="color: #351c75;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">I didn't realise how long its been since I last posted here,things have been so very busy lately.Ive been decorating my kitchen it was a hell hole,holes in cupboard doors,old 70s kitchen units in melamine beige,(yum),kickboards missing,trim missing and a warped sink,old walpaper on the walls covered in grease,ewww!!</span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #351c75;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">Anyway,with the help of Pete,my lovely,we have tiled,painted,filled,repaired and made it look lovely,I used a special paint to make the old dark trims look like beech wood,and we put stylish handles on the cupboard doors after repairing them,the floor is new,the woodworm treated and now I have a bloody kitchen.</span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #351c75;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">After decorating the dining room and lounge,the bathroom will need doing,what a mess,its tiny with dark blue seventies style toilet,bath and sink,all are broken in some way so need replacing with a nice white suite.</span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #351c75;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">This house celebrates its 100th birthday this year,the plaque outside dates this terrace of about 10 houses as 1910.So its not bad for an old timer,the render outside needs attention and the roof which in this windy wet weather is leaking a bit,but cross fingers it wont get really bad,but then landlords should have insurances for that anyway.We will see this winter.</span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #351c75;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">I know my landlord should do all this,but I like a project and I'm a glutton for punishment.Heaven help me....</span></span></b></span><br />
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<span style="color: #674ea7;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">Im quite dizzy and my head feels like I have a hangover,my mouth is dry so thank goodness I found the website about the side effects,or Id think I had slept walked and spent the night living it up with a hobo.</span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #674ea7;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">Fancy not giving me a sheet of info with my tablets? Strange that.</span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #674ea7;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">I feel like Im someone else,if you get me,like Im not in my body,so it must have been a good night lol.I did get out of bed but I found myself at my bedroom door,its weird waking up and looking at a door,it takes a few moments to realise where you are.I had some really vivid dreams as per,but at least I got back to sleep after which is a bonus.</span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #674ea7;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">Anyway,thats one reason I wanted to be here writing,the other is some info for you.</span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #674ea7;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">Here in good old Blackpool,a pilot scheme was introduced by the government for the old housing benefit.I call it the old housing benefit because now the scheme has gone national and is in place.The website says 2008 but thats bollox,sorry but it is.</span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #674ea7;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">It works under the principal of how many bedrooms you need as opposed to paying a percentage of your rent,( for a private landlord not the council by the way),to your landlord.</span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #674ea7;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">So laymens terms...</span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #674ea7;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">If you rent from a private landlord,your claim will be assessed thus...</span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #674ea7;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">One room per adult</span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #674ea7;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">One room per couple</span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #674ea7;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">One room per person over 16</span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #674ea7;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">One room for two same sex relative,e.g. two brothers under 16 share.</span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #674ea7;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">If you are living alone and share the bathroom etc with other occupants,you get one room rate.Some rules are different for under 25s too.</span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #674ea7;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">One room for different sex child,e.g if you have a son and a daughter its one room each,I think.</span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #674ea7;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">So,for me...one room for me,one for my son and his girlfriend,one for their daughter whose two,one for my two sons under 16 and one for my 16 year old daughter.So I am entitled to...the five bedroomed rate.</span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #674ea7;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">Of course the rules still apply as before,so if any occupants work then you recieve less,but if they recieve benefits check things out,you can get extra if you care for someone on DLA or attendance allowance,more if they are on the higher rates of those too.Its not easy to work out at first.Now the reason Im talking about this is because some of you may notice that your housing benefit has gone down,its not as much as it was,dont expect a leter about it,youre expected to look this all up yourself.</span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #674ea7;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">Please,if you find there is not enough to pay your rent,go to the C.A.B,( citizens advice bureau),and take your award notices,there are laws about making a person homeless yes,but you also have welfare rights and are entitled to extra help if you are on a very low income and considered a vaunerable member of society.The council wont help you and theyre not interested,take it from me.You just get the usual spiel.</span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #674ea7;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">If you dont know where your local C.A.B is click this link...<a href="http://www.citizensadvice.org.uk/">C.A.B</a></span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #674ea7;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">Below is the website to find the table to work out your entitlement,I hope it helps,you need to find your local council then input your circumstances to get an idea,the reason being that all councils rental values are different,if a council has been assessed as having a broad rental market,most of the rents are relatively the same,if not then the rents can vary,as it would mean that the house values also vary in that area,anyhoo,heres your link to go find out...<a href="https://lha-direct.voa.gov.uk/Secure/Default.aspx">L.H.A</a></span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #674ea7;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">Please remember to check in case your housing benefit has gone down,it shouldnt do but they are being very stringent with all this and they are making mistakes,the council dont admit mistakes so you need the C.A.B on your side from the off.</span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #674ea7;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">I hope this has helped.</span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #674ea7;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">Im off to get a stimulant...coffee to you and have a mad five minutes,toodle pip.xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx </span></span></b></span>Zoehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08810689138581133111noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8035363246310101490.post-8899164172462783162010-07-29T00:42:00.000+01:002010-07-29T00:42:12.033+01:00Long time no post<span style="color: #351c75;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">Its been a while since I last posted,mainly because the weeks seem to be flying by to be honest.I went to the doctors yesterday,since 1996 I have suffered from anxiety,nightmares and recently sleepwalking associated with past events.So I sat in the surgery trying to explain how I need help as I feel down and recently fell down the stairs sleepwalking,my memory is crap to be honest and I probably repeated things over and over,thats two fold really,due to lack of sleep and the fact that my anxiety causes me memory loss,or distraction if you like.The upshot is that I have been prescribed 'Mirtazapine',also known as 'Remeron' mainly in the USA.</span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #351c75;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">However the pharmasist didnt give me a leaflet in with my medication,so Ive spent the better part of this evening looking up the side effects,brilliant eh?</span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #351c75;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">So I can expect...weight gain,odema,dry mouth,seizures,headaches,dizzyness,disorientation,severe bad dreams,anger,violence and increased sex drive to the point of not bothering with knickers at all !!</span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #351c75;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">Im not sure if the latter is an 'up' side,but if Im on the news for grabbing a drunk man,sexually assaulting him and then beating him up,then you know why.</span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #351c75;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">As for the increase in the bad dreams dept...Im not happy at all,although the tablets will make me sleep,(alot),the bad dreams I already have are terrifying to say the least,I dont want them to get worse.</span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #351c75;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">However,Im about to take my first tablet of 30mg so wish me luck,if anyone has taken these before Id love to hear how you got on,they are for severe depression and/or P.T.S.D,so here goes...if Im not here for a while Ive forgotten how to use the computer.</span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #351c75;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx </span></span></b></span>Zoehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08810689138581133111noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8035363246310101490.post-16833995447734194672010-07-14T09:19:00.000+01:002010-07-14T09:19:11.455+01:00Hi all<span style="color: #674ea7;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">I haven't posted here for a while,mainly because alot has gone on,but also because Ive been a bit down and I promised myself I would'nt write negative things here when Im like that.</span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #674ea7;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">I mentioned before I found a lump on my breast,about 6 weeks ago,anyway,thankfully after having a scan Monday,I'm all clear.That was a roller-coaster ride I can tell you,mainly because I felt so helpless,if it had been bad,how would I do things,who would look after the house the children etc etc...I realised how alone and vulnerable I was,I cant change that either,its a worry.If you think about it,its things like,who pays the rent,what about the house do I lose it? Where would the children go to? I dont have anyone for them.</span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #674ea7;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">However those questions can keep a girl up all night.Ive lost enough sleep.</span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #674ea7;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">The time is also coming that I cant seem to get over,my Dads death,a wonderful heady memory journey where I wake up seeing things in glorious technicolour.That six month period of time,where I was convinced they got the diagnosis wrong,and for the better part of that time,used the excuse of that to go and spend loads of time with him.It was only nearer the end that I was full-on caring for him,then it hit me.He was diagnosed in the April and died 10/10/2008,5pm,not a minute over,his watch stopped,the battery had gone,I still havent replaced it either,he would be cross.</span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #674ea7;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">He was the one I called when I needed to talk,and boy have I needed to talk.An hour a day on the phone every day,then it just stopped,no more talking,no laughing,nothing.When Im upset I want to run away,I dont want to hear harsh words,alot of the time Im the one in the wrong,Im quite headstrong,he would bring me down,make me see I was being hasty.Especially giving me the mans point of view,bless you all you men,but I dont understand you sometimes.I dont understand myself,this six month vivid memory journey,to me,means theres unfinished business and I cant move on,but I dont know what it is,its been 2 years this October.</span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #674ea7;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">My birthday is on the 30th of October,and I forget because everything gets in the way.</span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #674ea7;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">Sometimes I dont feel appreciated,like Im helping out everyone else and theres no time for me,but what would I do with the time? If Im alone,the memories consume me too much.I dont like being alone.</span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #674ea7;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">I dont mean lonely,Im not lonely as such,if you get me,but being alone,even for a few hours,alot of things creep up on me,not just about my Dad,alot of bad things have gone on too,its not nice when your brain tortures you.</span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #674ea7;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">Theres been problems in the house here,too many adults really,people need to move on,but I dont want it under a cloud,I so wanted it all to be nice,but every so often it all flares up,its always in my face,like everything is either my fault,or because of me.It doesnt help,people have forgotten what matters and have become too selfish,wanting it all but not thinking that it takes from everyone else.I try so hard,the pressure is terrible on me,everyone expects me to sort it all,pulling me this way and that,I can get angry and tell people how it is,thats the easy bit,to build bridges after is hard.I feel like Im in the way sometimes,or that Im an invisible entity,things get done by accident not because I do them,so I cant phone Dad,everyone knows that,but no-one stops and says,''hang on maybe what I just said hurt her'',no-one.</span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #674ea7;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">I cant phone Dad.</span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #674ea7;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">So I muddle on,being critisised for not doing this or saying that,or for saying something or doing something wrong.My past thrown in my face all the time,like a weapon.I havent done anything wrong in my past,but theres always a critisism.No back up,everyone else will make it up and people will talk to me again,but it wont be long before it all goes wrong again and it all turns on me,what I said or did the last time blah blah blah,no-one asks me if Im alright,I cry alone,whats the point of showing people Im grieving? Im sure people will just say get on with it,everyone loses someone.Yes they do,but I had no time to grieve,when he died,we got thrown out of the family home by my ex,I had no money for 8 weeks,children to feed,a cold winter to deal with and an agressive landlord.I wanted to curl up in a ball and hide,but I didnt.That doesnt hold any weight,no-one remembers that or when Ive not eaten for weeks on end to feed people,or when Ive given my last bit of money to someone to help out,all people remember is one time when I said someting in anger,because they were in my face.</span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #674ea7;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">When Im gone,no-one will feel the way I feel about Dad about me,thats a shame,not because they wont,Im sure they will,but because I dont feel they will,thats the difference between being alone,and being lonely.</span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #674ea7;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">xxxxxxxxxxxx </span></span></b></span>Zoehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08810689138581133111noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8035363246310101490.post-8544050030499232632010-06-15T10:26:00.003+01:002010-06-15T10:39:35.456+01:00Hi all.<span style="color: #674ea7;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;"><a href="http://s69.photobucket.com/albums/i43/hangup69/?action=view&current=DA_CatMouseGame_W.gif" target="_blank"><img alt="Photobucket" border="0" src="http://i69.photobucket.com/albums/i43/hangup69/DA_CatMouseGame_W.gif" /></a></span></span></b></span><br />
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<span style="color: #674ea7;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">Anyway I hope youre all well,if this works I hope you enjoy this if not...bugger lol.xx</span></span></b></span><br />
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<span style="color: #674ea7;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">In answer to Lynn,my ex is apparently living the lovely batchelor life,and on the 3rd is going to yet another reunion for his school,thats a four day drinking binge,instead of having his son,so Robert doesnt see him for two weeks,it must be lovely living with no responsibility,no one to shout at you or tell you to get up out of bed.You dont have to pay out any money and can run around in your underpants all day.Triffic.</span></span></b></span><br />
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<span style="color: #674ea7;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">Im having such a busy week,decorating yesterday,today Im making calls,moving furniture back into my daughters room and out of my kitchen,tomorrow I have the builders in to re-do my kitchen...joy..so all my white goods need moving,today and tomorrow my two sons are starting their private tuition and I have to try and fit in my shopping this week at some point...argghhh.</span></span></b></span><br />
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<span style="color: #674ea7;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">Also a quick note,not that you need one,about 7/7. Snag this tag if you need to,please remember the fallen with two minutes silence,not many people bother anymore,which is a shame.</span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #674ea7;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">Im going to get my day started so take care I hope these tags come out ok for you,I shall leave you with a funny video from a game one of my sons has,I said Id post it so he would help me today,bloomin kids eh? lol</span></span></b></span><br />
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<object height="280" width="380"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/zng5kRle4FA&hl=en_US&fs=1&"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/zng5kRle4FA&hl=en_US&fs=1&" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="380" height="280"></embed></object>Zoehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08810689138581133111noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8035363246310101490.post-22282904285847934612010-06-07T10:17:00.000+01:002010-06-07T10:17:08.852+01:00Today<span style="color: #674ea7;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">Today is my day one after Jane passed.I decided to wait a bit before writing out of respect,but then I remembered what she had said to me once,that she enjoyed my blog because of its 'in-your face' honesty.If she was here today she would expect no less from me,no whining,not grief,not self absorbing thoughts,I can be that way,so I wont be.Today I write this entry so that she can read one of many blogs,she enjoyed,and to laugh and cry with me as I continue my journey.The funeral is 11th this friday,please leave a wish at the door of her blog to guide her onto her new life.</span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #674ea7;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">Well another weekend over,the weeks are passing by so fast.I am due to start two of my children on their journey into private tuition,yes folks you heard it here.Im still home teaching,but weve gone all posh and upmarket.Yeah right,well ok maybe not so posh,but a bit extra is always welcome.</span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #674ea7;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">Isnt it just?</span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #674ea7;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">So they will be having a few evenings doing extra work,he he I know Im wicked,well you cant have enough education I say. </span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #674ea7;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">My daughter is due to start an apprentiship soon too,so I may have a bit more time on my hands soon,dont whine I wasnt going to spend it here.</span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #674ea7;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">Ive got decorating to do,and in the absence of a drum roll,I shall just bore you with the details.</span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #674ea7;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">We have a top room loft conversion,( dont get too excited),and after having the rest of the loft insulated,it has become damp with condensation,not enough air flow you see,so Ive been cleaning mould off the walls and this week we should be popping in a few small air vents.Then I can paint away,white ceiling and lilac walls,its my daughters bedroom,so hopefully lilac instead of pink will mean she will move out quicker.There is method in my madness lol.</span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #674ea7;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">I have to go to a hospital appointment on wednesday about the lump on my breast,so far since I discovered it,its been five weeks and still no diagnosis,so hopefully wednesday will give me an answer.If I have to go back in another two weeks Im going to be angry.My G.P wont commit to an answer because...get this... if he was wrong he could be in court over it.So what is the point of having a blessed gp? If he says you have flu and you find out it was syphallis would you take him to court? Seriously?</span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #674ea7;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">So I have to sit in a darkened corridor,alone,while I wait for someone who can tell me,what it is,I feel so much better with such an impersonal diagnosis,far be it for me to want my own gp,who I know and trust to give me the answer,when a complete stranger can do it oh so much better.For crying out loud.This is my life !!</span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #674ea7;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">I had to make my own appointment online,then I got a computer generated confirmation,as yet no human being has dealt with me,will I see a robot on wednesday? Its like phoning your bank isnt it? Going through the multiple choice questionnaire and then not even getting a person to talk to about your overdraft.</span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #674ea7;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">''Hello you have reached the blood sucking bank,you have three options,press one for I cant afford my overdraft,press two for pay all of my overdraft,press three for I dont want an english speaking person to talk to me.</span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #674ea7;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">You pressed one,now choose from two further options,press one for I cant afford to pay my overdraft today,press two for I cant afford to pay it ever,</span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #674ea7;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">You pressed two,please press the hash key to confirm this is your answer.</span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #674ea7;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">You have confirmed you cannot ever pay your overdraft,you will be visited by three ghosts starting this evening,the blood sucking bank does not take responsibility for fear caused by the afore-mentioned ghosts and if you wish to cancel this arrangement you must give 28 days notice from todays date in writing to.....Beeeeeeep,the message box is now full if you wish to leave a message please call back in a few days.''</span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #674ea7;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">My life in a nutshell folks.</span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #674ea7;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">Oh well this wont get anything done,Im off to get a coffee and a ginger cream to dunk.Toodle pip.xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx</span></span></b></span>Zoehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08810689138581133111noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8035363246310101490.post-15185722333265374172010-06-03T11:53:00.000+01:002010-06-03T11:53:02.535+01:00Jane<span style="color: #674ea7;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">There have been so many beautiful tributes to Jane,( journey of another kind),who sadly lost her battle with kidney cancer on 30th.I dont feel I can add to those so well,however Jane was remarkable,not only battling a terrible disease but also being a mum and wife.Her family are so very deeply sad and her husband feels so empty.What can you say?</span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #674ea7;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">You can say,Jane was an inspiration,she was,and that she was a fighter,she was,to me,she helped me through a dark time,when I had lost hope and wanted it all to end,just to be at peace.I write because it heals me,because its a therapy,I never expected anyone to read it or comment,Jane was one of the first to do so and lifted me,her light was so bright and will always be.To me,she was and still is,a very dear friend.</span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #674ea7;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">I will miss you.Rest in peace Jane,what a wonderful person you have been and Im honoured to have known you.</span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #674ea7;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">xxx </span></span></b></span>Zoehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08810689138581133111noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8035363246310101490.post-86525402231760535032010-05-26T19:34:00.001+01:002010-05-26T19:39:23.387+01:00Update<span style="color: #674ea7;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">Hi all,I hope you're well,I havent been about much lately,my computer blew up and youd think it would be so easy to get another.Well..no,I went to argos they wanted to take my money and deliver it up to 28 days later,that was no good as I needed it now,so did P.C world and currys,so I went to Tesco,the one they showed on shelf wasnt as it said and I was getting really fed up,however I settled for one the same size specs as the argos one,same price and its really great.My last one sounded like a dying duck in a thunder storm,this one is silent,its lovely.Ive got 3gb ram and 320gb hard drive,thats triple what I had before....(no I dont get the specs either but I sounded impressive didnt I?)</span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #674ea7;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">Whats up with the format of posting here? I didnt ask for spell check or word,Ive got little red lines under the words here,I dont care Im not gramatically correct anyhoo.</span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #674ea7;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">I had to go to the doctors the other day,about two weeks ago I found a lump on my breast,when I saw the doctor he asked me to come back in two weeks to see what its doing...I cant say its doing an awful lot,so anyway I went back and was told its nothing to worry about but I can have a mammogram anyway.Not to worry? Ever since I was put on the ruddy mini pill my life has gone down the toilet.Ive been plunged into...THE MENOPAUSE...arrgghhh.Lumps,bumps,moods,heavy bleeds,no bleeds,hot,cold,crying,angry,depressed,elated over naff all,snappy,forgetful,tired and that was just yesterday.HELP ME PLEASE !!!</span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #674ea7;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">Can I ask something of the ladies here present,or at least those who are going through the big 'M',Its a bit delicate,so Mort go make a coffee hun...</span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #674ea7;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">Has he gone? Ok,you see Ive got a small problem,actually its a bit of a big one if Im honest,is it normal during the menopause to feel aroused at the sight of baked beans? I cant go shopping without coming over all...you know.I mean yesterday I was looking at the argos catalogue and got all hot over a light fitting.I dont know what to do,I cant grab my fella every time I feel like this,the poor soul would be bandy legged by next week !!</span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #674ea7;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">Its getting silly now,I bet in a few weeks Ill shrivvle up to nowt and have no damn urges at all.Typical.</span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #674ea7;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">Ok Mort you can come back...hey no bikkies with my coffee? Tut tut.</span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #674ea7;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">You cant get the staff,honestly.</span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #674ea7;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">I also want to say a very warm welcome to 'Ste',long time no see my lovely.One of my very best friends and hes feeling a bit down,bless him hes just found me and Im already putting him off with menopausal shananigans,ha ha,Oh well no change there I guess.Its usually toilets tho eh hun?</span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #674ea7;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">On that subject,my toilet is now rocking,I have to get another one,the thingy valve has gone inside and the handle broke,it feels very low on the floor,maybe its going to sink into the seventh circle of hell with everything else in this house.The seat has broken too,Oh God almighty.</span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #674ea7;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">I need a brain enema,anyone got any?</span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #674ea7;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">Well thats my news...I know you envy my life dont you,its hard being me,being so drop dead gorgeous,millions of fans following me everywhere and offers of summer season in bridlington...but I manage,Im filthy rich and Ive just had my la las supersized to a 36jjj so now I wont be running for the bus,Ill just call 118 118 and get a man and a van to ferry me......then I woke up.</span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #674ea7;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">Alright alright,Im a worn out,poor,menopausal,cantankerous old fart,with beard growth,underarm fluff and something strange going on in the knicker department.But you love me....yes you do.</span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #674ea7;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">I shall leave you now with something sensible,pay attention because theres a prize for anyone who can understand anything Christian Bale,( as batman), says...its only a chocolate hob nob but its the principal of it all...</span></span></b></span><br />
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<object height="340" width="340"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/w2yv8aT0UFc&hl=en_US&fs=1&"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/w2yv8aT0UFc&hl=en_US&fs=1&" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="340" height="340"></embed></object><span style="color: #674ea7;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;"> </span></span></b></span>Zoehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08810689138581133111noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8035363246310101490.post-50755191266284066312010-05-05T10:45:00.000+01:002010-05-05T10:45:36.451+01:00Jane<span style="color: #351c75;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">Words cannot describe how I feel today.To learn that Jane,from 'journey of another kind' is going home to pass away with her famliy beside her.Ive read her blog for,I dont know how long,and she has been such an inspiration to me.When my father was diagnosed,she was there offering support,even though her cancer was attacking her so fiercly,she gave up her time.Its not every day somebody touches your soul and lets you into their life so intimately that you journey with them.Alot of people in this world couldnt care less about anyone else,to lose someone who gives up their time to help every person they meet is so rare.Its not fair,I dont care what anyone says,its not fair.</span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #351c75;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">Ive left her a comment,I had no idea what to say at all.So I just wrote how I felt.But Im not sure how to feel,Im angry,angry that after everything,she is in so much pain,she has to leave her loving family who adore her,her husband who will be alone and say goodbye to all she loves here,but I know she knew this was to be,its still not fair.</span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #351c75;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">I am glad she has so much love in her life,most of us wont leave a mark so prominant,I hope no-one is ever alone to face the end,but sometimes it happens.Jane will never be alone,and we will always remember her.</span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #351c75;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">Sleep in peace my friend.Ill miss you.xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx</span></span></b></span>Zoehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08810689138581133111noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8035363246310101490.post-22058758300566642262010-04-29T23:20:00.000+01:002010-04-29T23:20:43.867+01:00Enjoy<span style="color: #351c75;"><b><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">Well I shall leave you with a tittle for the weekend,Im off to run around the table with my knickers round my ankles shouting.. ''look at me Im a chocolate biscuit'',toodle pip.xxxxxxxxxxxxxx</span></span></b></span><br />
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